“…They were those that would have wept to step barefoot into reality,
That would have wept and been happy, have shivered in the frost
And cried out to feel it again, have run fingers over leaves
And against the most coiled thorn, have seized on what was ugly
-from “Large Red Man Reading” by Wallace Stevens
The ability to feel, be it pain, sorrow, happiness, or even cold, is a gift.
Christ gives us the freedom and ability to really LIVE, to really FEEL. And we can hope and laugh and cry and feel pain, embracing both joys and disappointments because God gives us the freedom to fully experience life and the grace to handle it all. Sometimes I refuse to let myself get my hopes up, or really enjoy things just in case God decides to take those blessings away. I have this weird fear of being crushed with disappointment. But that’s cowardly living, stunting His grace and forgiveness from wreaking love and peace and joy and transformation on my little weak scared heart. He allows difficult things in our lives BECAUSE He loves us. He loves us too much to see our hearts being taken by anything besides Him. He loves me too much to let me stay the way I am. So here’s to life, Jesus. Ima embrace this chance to “step barefoot into reality”, to know what it means to say “the Lord gives and the Lord takes away [BUT] blessed be the name of the Lord.”