i know i’m home when…

1) i’ve lost jeopardy bouts and chess matches to my eleven-yr-old brother already

2) my bestie from 4th grade and i have already had one of those crazy-long conversations in my driveway

3) i’ve gone to the grocery store with my mom three times in the past week (girl-bonding time!)

4) my dad is asking me to help him edit proposals

5) all the Special K is gone

6) chengplane just gchat-asked me what the coolest thing i’ve done at home so far is, and i said waking justin up by singing “happy birthday” and playing the ukulele. yeah i’m cool like that.

good to be home <3


oh and so on a different note, my dearest michelle is engaged now. yay! it’s so weird how so many people are getting engaged/starting to date lately. though i’ve also heard a good amount of break-up/boys-are-jerks stories, which reminds me that pretty much unless God writes your love story, a lotta pain and confusion is more likely than anything. [it also reminds me that i am not a very romantic person. at all. don’t try with flowers and pretty words, please. i will punch you.] we run ourselves into the ground, or at least i do, trying to earn love -not just in “relationships” but also with our families and classmates and friends when God’s right there, with His arms open wide. and we run right past and wonder why He’s not doing anything. makes me think of this song, By Your Side, that a great many people have been telling me about. it’s by Tenth Avenue North, written as if it from God to us:

“Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don’t turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I’m not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

cause I’ll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don’t fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world’s sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I’ll never let you go”



One thought on “i know i’m home when…

  1. david says:

    learn to play that song on the ukulele.

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